The beginning of this month seemed just like any other, besides the fact that I was dog-sitting. There was no big event on the horizon, no major project that needed to be knocked out right away at work, everything was calm. Then, a friend of mine shared a link on Facebook with me for the United Pursuit School of Worship from May 25-30.
My first thought was, “There’s no way that I’d be able to make it. It’s in Southern California.” My second thought was, “Scroll on by!” Peace out, crazy thoughts, see you later. My relationship with worship has been funny and weird anyway. Many people around me have asked and alluded to my involvement in worship, and honestly, I had felt unworthy. My third thought was, “Someone else would benefit from it far more than I would.”
A few weeks later, it came back up on my feed, and then a friend of mine, Logan, told me he had auditioned and got accepted. My first thought was, “That’s cool!” My second thought was, “I wanna be accepted!” My third thought was, “Let’s just audition for the fun of it.”
So, I went home and did just that. I told Logan I had applied, and I really didn’t think anything else about it. Actually, I really doubted I’d even get in. Logan heard back in less than 48 hours that he got in after sending his video. I didn’t hear back in 48 hours… or 72 hours even.
But something happened in that time of waiting. I realized that I have a huge love for leading people into worship. I realized that in conversations about God, I love to break these big huge ideas down into simple and beautiful, easy to digest ideas. The way that I talk to others about God is worship. And I love to sing! I love to create and write music! DUH! Right!? I have been given these gifts and leadership strengths for worship.
About five days after I sent in my audition, I got an email. I opened it and first saw how short it was. Then I saw its greeting, “Hey Everyone,”. I thought it was the rejection letter, but it had an attached letter. I opened it, and scanned the first line, “On behalf of the United Pursuit team, we are happy to welcome you to the United Pursuit School of Worship in Southern California…”
I was stunned… they were only accepting 30 of the 200 applications they received… and I was one of them!? I sent my friend Logan a text and he was freaking out. I was freaking out a little too, because just a few days before I had looked at the scary price tag that was attached to this school, $850, and was more hoping I wouldn’t be accepted so I wouldn’t have to make a decision. Now, I had a decision I had to make.
I had several friends around me telling me this was awesome and that I really needed to do it. I needed to trust in God and just go for it. The United Pursuit team spent time in prayer before choosing the candidates too. I was not chosen merely for my musical abilities, but also by the direction of God’s leading!
The most transparent answer that I can tell you that caused me pause about making a decision was the money. I had a little cash saved up on the side, but… it’s been my security just knowing I have a few hundred sitting for an emergency. Long story short (and a whole blog post’s worth of story), God showed me I was putting too much trust on my money and not enough on Him. I relented and agreed to go, and to spend the money.
I was expecting to put in $600. I have some friends who had committed to giving toward the school, and so $600 was what was left to pay, including cost of flights. I had been doing some research on flights and it looked like they were going to cost anywhere from $230-$300. Today, I went searching again, and found way cheaper flights that would only cost me $169. Well, I just bought my flights… and with the help of a Southwest Credit Card perk… they only cost me $69!
Overwhelmed, is a great word to use for how I am feeling right now. Instead of putting in $600, I am now only putting in $350. Can you just take a moment and PRAISE THE LORD with me!? Seriously! How amazing is HE!? This month started out normal, then got weird, then got scary, then got AWESOME! And I’m realizing that His provision would never have been seen if I didn’t make the choice to go in the first place!
The confirmation is amazingly strong. And let this be a word of encouragement to you, as the moral of my story. Sometimes, you don’t know if God is asking you to do something, until you have done it. I am just reminded now of the promise that God gave to Moses. He told him that Moses would know God sent him when he brought the people out of Egypt and he would worship God on the mountain. Yeah… that meant Moses had to act before he had a sign of certainty. WOW!
So, now I am leaving on the 25th of May and am expecting a life-changing experience once again in Southern California. Pray with me that; God will use this time to speak deeply to me and show me my part in worship leading; my confidence will increase in my identity as a worshiper; my voice will be in good health, as that’s probably what I’ll be using the whole time I’m there.
Now, if you’d like to become a part of this miracle you are more than welcome! My friend Logan is still fundraising for his portion to go. To support him, please go to: https://www.gofundme.com/logan2upsow